As I lie here dying... โ˜ ๐Ÿค’

"Seven deadly sins don't even get 'em all, | and lyin' to yourself; the biggest of 'em all."

- ๐ŸŽง'Save the Day Feestyle'๐ŸŽถ

O.K. if we were to get unnecessarily deep, we could say that we are all dying. Every day that goes by, we get closer to ๐Ÿ’€ . #True ๐Ÿ™ƒ I'm not trying to go there. Let's keep it simple. It just happens to work extra well as a metaphor because I have cancer. ๐Ÿ™„ #Whatevs. Use what you got, right? 

Anyways,

I've been ill the last couple of days. Don't worry, I'm fine. Turns out, it's just illness caused by stress, too much caffeine, etc... I got a Rx. I'll be fine. #NoteTaken ๐Ÿ“‘ body. 

However,

with my current "C-word" (๐Ÿ˜ทcancer) situation, it's easy to let the mind wonder. I'm glad it did. I tend to not worry about things too much, but I've been responding the exact opposite this last month. I've been stressing hardcore while being stretched๐Ÿ˜– all kinds of ways. Today, while on my way to the doctor, I had this thought for the first time. 

- "I don't want to die."โ˜ 

I even went so far as to say it out loud. I haven't said or thought this at all through my journey with cancer. Plans have been made and I'm in execution mode. I have to take conscious responsibility for my present actions so I can have future ones.

Challenge has me pinned between breakthrough and mistakes.

The challenge is being honest with myself, and using it to make a well informed plan of action.

I WILL break through & so will you.

Love you all.

Trevor Lee

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