The one thing I can always count on is struggle.
It has been an active part of my life since the day I was born. My mother tells the story that I was born with the umbilical chord wrapped around my throat inhibiting my breathing causing my body to be blue. Although it may be hard to imagine, I turn this into a joke in my live performance. If you've seen me live, you know which one. If not, don't judge me. It plays.
I could list the various struggles that I've encountered, and new ones I manage daily, but this isn't the point. Struggles usually cause stress in our mind and body as we strain to push forward despite it's continued push backwards. As my wife would tell you, I'm known for keeping a pretty cool head and strong resolve in the face of even the most intense struggle. Even my cousins have said to me in conversations,
"Not everyone is as strong as you."
"You think I'm strong? You got it twisted."
I don't have super powers.
I'm not Trevor Lee - Anti-Stress Man. (I need to work on my super hero naming skills.) I'm just a man with...
It's really the only good thing I have going for me internally. I've never doubted God. I don't doubt His future for me, and trusting in His plans despite how things look comes easy to me.
even though I'm "Faith Man" in my life (Is that a better name? Practice makes perfect. lol), there are pieces of me screaming inside at times. Especially as of late. My wife and I have moved out of our apartment with our lease being up and moved in with another young couple. We are renting a room until we move into our next home. Talk about stress! I'm not gonna get into it now, but I'm sure you can imagine. The picture I'm trying to paint, is that I'm juggling a lot. And this last week has been the peak, really squeezing me.
If I can be totally honest...
I didn't handle it as well as the people around me would've expected. I didn't lean as much on faith as I should have.
It's OK to not be OK.
Its in the midst of a stress storm that it is most important for us to admit "I am not OK." It is at this point of humility that the process of faith begins.
Thank you for reading. I hope this encourages you in some way.
Love you all.